I’ve had a lot on my mind lately. I can’t really articulate it super well, so let’s try bullet points, shall we?
:: True Love. It’s a crazy hard thing to live out. I sometimes feel like love shouldn’t feel like a sacrifice. Like it’s hypocritical to say I love someone when it takes every ounce of will to selflessly serve that person. That doesn’t feel like love, but it most certainly is. And it’s better than a feeling
:: I can’t ‘open’ bananas properly. I always have to use a knife to get it started. Please tell me I’m not the only one who has this problem.
:: We ordered a side of grass-fed beef this week. I’m pretty sure that puts us in the “hippy” category. It might even put me in the insane category because I’m so stinkin’ excited about it.
:: It can be a huge burden to be one of those people who “thinks things through.” I kind of wish I could just live happily in ignorance about a lot of things. My natural curiosity, realism, and doubt means I can’t take things at face value. I have to research everything. I often feel like the odd-man-out. I know people think I’m a little crazy because I live and eat the way I do. It’s lonely sometimes.
:: Marriage is the best. Marriage to your best friend is the absolute best. To be fully known and loved is the most freeing thing. It makes me cry whenever I think about it.
:: I love Netflix live-streaming. As much as TV isn’t the focus of our house, it can be a really nice way to unwind and just hang out. Brian and I tend to get addicted to a show (lately, Law and Order: Criminal Intent and Psych) and it’s fun to watch season after season without commercial interruption.
:: I have some incredibly wonderful friends. Naturally I struggle with feelings of loneliness and fear that people won’t really like me (yes, I’m probably 5). Lately I’ve been overwhelmed with how blessed I am to have real friendships that are growing and soul-nurturing. It’s a great thing.
:: I’m taking B on a special date tonight. We’re going dancing. This basically makes me feel like I’m going to the Prom. Words cannot express my excitement.
:: Parker makes me laugh a lot. Funniest little boy ever. He now makes a fake sneeze sound that gives me a giggle fit.
:: I bought a new dress and pair of shoes yesterday. Let’s just say, I don’t feel or look like a mom in them. They make me happy.
:: I’m leaving for CA in a little over a week. I’m excited and terrified. I’ll be flying for almost 4 hours with a 14 month old. Any tips or prayers would be appreciated. The times with my family will be precious. I can’t wait!!
:: Have a great weekend everyone!