Less Than Perfect

Some days I feel like an USDA food label.

I feel like I’m advertising “all natural” without the evidence to back it up. A product might advertise that it is “organic” or “free range” but there is very little to monitor or verify those claims. Today, this is how I’m feeling. Quite a bit less than perfect. I’m claiming that I desire to live a certain “natural” way, but it is missing from much of my life at the moment. It makes me feel like I’m being dishonest with you all–and with myself.

So, let me clear the air.

:: We’ve eaten out probably 70% of the time for the past month. My oven’s been broken and I’m still struggling with pregnancy fatigue. Getting creative in the kitchen hasn’t been my top priority. Or, really, one at all.

:: We might have to stop cloth diapering. I cannot tell you how much this upsets me. But, Parker has had rashes off and on for the past 6 months–only when we are using cloth. I don’t know what else to do.

:: My house is a bit of a disaster. I take pride in being a basically organized person. Just don’t look in my cupboards, basement storage, or (at the moment), my living room.

:: I used weed killer on our front yard. I cannot keep up with these Midwest weeds. I only sprayed them far away from my vegetables, but it still is such a violation of how I’d like to live.

:: I was on antibiotics this month. It happens. I occasionally use medicine. It absolutely kills me to do it. I’ve been taking probiotics ever since to try and replenish what the antibiotics tend to destroy. Sigh.

:: I throw a lot of food away. I’m not good at keeping an inventory of my pantry and freezer. This results in a lot of wasted food. I hate waste.

Okay, those are my confessions. I know there are times in life where you just have to go easy on yourself, I’m guessing this is one of them. I’m trying to focus on all that I am doing for the health of my family and the environment. But it can be hard not to get down on myself. Being an adult can be such a challenge, can’t it?

So, tell me: how do you guys handle your shortcomings in homemaking? 


4 thoughts on “Less Than Perfect

  1. How do I handle my shortcomings in the healthy homemaking department? Well, it varies. Right now, I’m pretending that everything is fine, which works to get me through each day. Survival mode is okay sometimes. Other times I know I’m doing the best I can, and make a conscious effort to forget about the other stuff that can weigh me down. And, lastly, and probably the best way, is I pray. Being a mom, wife, and homemaker is more than I can handle on my own, and there are so many things out of my control. So, I do what I can and pray that God will work all things for my good and the good of my family, even despite my mistakes and shortcomings.

    A couple suggestions:
    My mom uses a vinegar/salt solution on all her weeds, which are abundant, and they shrivel up and die over about 24 hours, especially on a hot day.

    About the cloth diapers…. I am a recent converter to cloth, so I’m sure you’ve already done this and more, but do you strip your diapers? And, what kind of detergent do you use on them? Maybe there’s a residue of some kind that’s causing the rash, and not the “cloth” itself. Like I said, you’ve probably already thought of both those things, but thought I’d pass it on anyway just in case.

    One more thing, you’re right about going easy on yourself right now. You can only do so much. No one is perfect, and it’s not fake or dishonest to be real. I doubt that any of us actually live up to our own ideals all the time. I swore I would NEVER EVER let my children eat hotdogs, and well, I’m pretty sure we’ve had hotdogs at least six times this summer because the kiddos love them on the grill. Oh well. Guess I’m a USDA label, too.

    Love ya, Friend!

  2. Thank you for your confessions! They’re good for the soul. 🙂 I think you’re right – this is just a “go easy on yourself” time. This, too, shall pass. 🙂 I’m inspired by your post simply because at least you profess something (natural living). I try to live open-book (that’s how I try to write my blog, being real), but as much as I’d like to live natural, I certainly don’t profess – and don’t entirely try – to live as such. Keep praying, keep trying. It’ll click back one day. God hasn’t left you alone. “Cast all your cares on Him, for He cares for you.” (1 Pet. 5:7)

  3. Man, I feel like this all the time in pretty much every area of my life. I try to not focus on it because you can only do things a little at a time and when things come crashing down on your perfect plans, I find that it’s best to shrug your shoulders and wait for the funk to pass. Some days just feel so much worse than others.

    Have you guys tried wool covers and cotton prefolds with P? I can bring you our wool covers since we aren’t using them right now. . . Let me know – I would be happy to let you guys try them out!

  4. Ok, delurking because I so identify with this and appreciate your honesty. I’ve also used weedkiller and felt horrible about it, let my house go and subjected my family to many less than creative meals (1st trimester fun!). We’ve had rash issues with our cloth-diapered son, too, and occasionally resort to days of disposables and hard core rash ointment until things clear. Working in an extra change or two a day, changing all poopy diapers immediately, using prefolds, and keeping a constant layer of ointment (and trying a different ointment)has been helping.

    The thing that helps the most with all of this, though, is GRACE. As a rehabilitating perfectionist, I have grace issues, but oh, don’t I need it! It’s comforting to know that we are not how well we “perform.” Frankly, there are days when I feel that I can’t “perform” at all, but God and my family love me anyway. What a gift!

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