When I first starting blogging I felt like I had so much to offer the world. That’s probably mostly because I was 20 and thought I knew everything. But the more I live and the more I read, the more I realize it’s all been said before. I’ve stopped thinking I have all the answers or even that I know the right questions to ask. And it feels really good. I don’t even feel like I need the answers, it’s ok to live and learn and just keep on keeping on.
We’ve had full days lately, as you all have I’m sure. Holiday things, school things, work things, house things, friend things, and kid things. The days are full of decision making and getting by and resolving conflict. I’m learning how to balance what I eat and how I exercise and how I parent and how to be a friend. And honestly, that’s enough. I don’t need to solve the problems of the world and what to do about Monsanto and race and poverty.
No, I just need to live faithfully. Every day. Faithful to my God. Faithful to my faith, if that makes any sense. And faithful to this little life that I’ve been given. I do what I can to make decisions that impact the world in a positive way and then I need to let the rest go. I need to be here. Fully here. Not on my phone or in the past or worrying about the future. I need to hold my babies and revel in their wonder at this season. I need to take deep breaths and be thankful for this minute. This quiet moment, alone in a warm house by a beautifully lit tree.
What does your season look like? What is happening this moment that you are embracing?